A belief/ confidence/ trust with no proof.. How much faith do we give,or how much can we afford to put in? My faith.. What have I put it in??

I want or don't want. Can or Cannot.. It's different.. There are a lot wants in this life...  it's just a matter or can or cannot on wanting the things..

I want.. But I know I can't..  Being naive.. Is just not wanting to face reality in life.. People are taking advantage of it.. and I know it.. But at the same time, I'm enjoying this period of taken advantage of.. No one shall decide for I create my own destiny. Decisions should not be made only until the last choice was left.. For that isn't a decision but an acceptance.

For I create my destiny, it must be a life I want....

For the many times.. we do not know what is going on.. it's getting right already.. stay firm.. and everything will be fine.. for it isn't fair.. but worth it?? How many times do I have to go through it.. cox I'm starting to get sick of it.

New objective.. what's with the quater life crisis that I'm having?? I guess the main bulk of it is what's my objective in life.. what's my new objective. My goal was too short. Achieved convention, get dad's debt paid off. So.. I have settled both.. what's next for me?

It's getting kind of weird that my objective in life just get cut off like that. There are lot of thing I wanna do.. and I guess now is the best time for me to slowly explore into all of it. Scuba diving is differently one of it.. I love the ocean, the sea, the big huge universe with almost 70% covered in blue. Looking at how big this universe is always reminds me that everyone lead their own unique life. It reminds me that if I'm suffering, then there will be tens and thousand and millions of people that might be and is worst of than me. Staying in the lala land of mine.. I think I have just been too cramped up in my own space.. I forgot to look at this universe again.. or narrowing down, just small litle things happening around me.

Opening up.. and opening out.. life is more then just typical.. at least for mine..

Have you destroyed the meaning and image of such a beautiful event in me? Cox I really feel so...

make a count.. How many people in this world really understands you???

My count.. just 1...